Pep Talk for Myself in This Moment.

When seeing people accept the outcome happily and satisfied, I sense the joy at the same time. When hearing somebody do well in  the performance, I admire their ability and attitude toward what they've deserved. When sensing everybody laughing because of compliment, I don't feel good anymore. Instead, I become jealous, frustrated, doubted whether I did wrong or right. I did wrong this time without a doubt. I spent more time on others'concern than my problem and weakness. This time, the mind state will be different, and so will the outcome. The long-lost determination and perseverance need to be resumed from my bottom of my heart.

Memorize through the window

What would you see through the window?

Passing car,

Fallen leaves,

Street light beside a tree,

Or nothing else but yourself,

Then,

I see a bitter stress and loneliness.

I miss the days we've spent together because 

They are much more easier, faster, and richer.